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THE silence of the room almost swarming her to swallow her whole in the guilt of revealing the truth only to this day to her dear brother and friend, rather than what has she done in the past that her sole presence were branded her as an accomplice to their crime.

For the first few seconds of silent agony that meddled inside, there was no sign of violence or retreats of their baffled appearance. Til an knock on the door reverberated throughout the room, pulling back into their senses.

" Come in. "

Her voice unstable under the tense room as the stares of the three were right upon her. The servant, who stepped into the room with hands occupied by the light liquors with no regard of the tight air, smiling down at the ones with no heed of greeting back as their penetrating gaze were already stucked on another.

Yul's hands were still in Na-ra's hold, not retreating back nor faltering as if he knew all from the start yet, the fear creeping in her not to let it go, at least not until the secrecy that the whistle-blowing was intentionally done for him in the first place.

Even if it costed him getting kicked out for the first and last time til now.

Na-ra knew, as long as the servant girl's presence were in this room, there by no means the other two would take high measures as killing her.

So, she should just ought to leave by her side to get out of an murder.

She slowly retreated back her hands from the hold of the boy, who appeared reluctant yet understanding in his fingertips. She didn't even dare to meet the eyes of the two sat before her, gulping down the dreadful thoughts of her own death that could potentially be mentioned in history as her death would be welcomed by the hands of her own blood and ally.

Just as the other girl who set down the liquor in the table was about to abandon the room to the four, Na-ra's hands slowly slammed to the table to stand up in the idea of walking away. However, to her own dismay of plans , a pair of hands fall upon hers alarmingly firm.

Her own brother's and her own friend's left hand firmly holding her down with a sinister sweet tug of lips.

The two men's eyes watched as the servant girl's figure stepped out from the room with the trace of the wind that piped down in a hush. The glare the two concealed with an thin smile, falling upon in a second, simultaneously as their hands that retreated back from hers.

" How could you do that to us?!? "

The betrayal of the past decade secrecy that revealed in the subtle tangled memory the four shared, shunned to her forehead by the two.

The one who sat beside the girl, sighed in defeat of the girl's resilient silence that spoke no words of truth behind her betrayal towards the two. As much as he hated to jump into the truth she wished to hidden, he couldn't do nothing and stay beside her.

" You two-"

" Because I didn't wanted to get kicked out by the foolish act of you guys. "

Words of the boy were swiftly cutted off by the girl in the trance of panic of revelation. While, the other two was too convinced with her side of opinion judging by the past decade Na-ra, who'll rather allow another to suffer than let it be her.

" I can't believe the first time I got kicked off is because of you. "

" Wrong. You got kicked off because you broke the golden inkstone and my brother here, initiated the plan to be quiet and bury it down and I just happen to be there to witness it. "

The summer boy gasped in disbelief of her sharp words that was very much the whole truth and on the other hand, her brother didn't even appeared to be amused at her harsh words.

" What about Yul then?? He didn't do anything wrong like you."

The question from her unamused  brother, held out towards her like an sore thump which she was trying to ignore.

An scoff with underlying ignorance was the sole response the girl could give out, finding all too waste of air to reply to her idiotic twin.

Or , the concept of voicing out the truth, that she betrayed the two, so the boy beside her wouldn't hurt himself further by the lie even when her place on Sejukwon would be fallen was something she found reluctant to disclose.

She could still recall the faint memory of the boy that's comparatively shorter than her til the years came by, skin pale as the snow and warm as if the sun stroked him, all because of a lie.Which is caused by crossing over his own morals .

Her brother and the summerboy was washed over with the guilt, she was too. Not for unable to speak the truth, rather the boy was hurting himself , all for them.

Then she decided.

Sure, she may get kicked out and lose the position as an student in Sejukwon
which all she had for telling she was accountable for the silence, but it was yul.

Even her past self were reluctay to watch her brother's pretty friend to be hurt.

So, inevitably the young girl had to be an whistle-blower in the crime and unexpectedly for speaking the truth, she was spared. None other than Sang-ho, Master Heo and Master park was aware of her doing.

Atleast that what she thought.

The ears that perked up even in the high fever of an confession of his friend's sister that gave more relief than the fear of the punishment was gone unnoticed by the girl.

He knew how much the girl appeared to wish to walk away from the scene when the incident took over.

Not crying away like the past could be reversed , not fighting off with her brother's idea that's unruly in his morals, rather content with it, and certainly not concerned with the prospect of lying for her friend or for herself.

He could still feel the warm tug on his cold hands, even when his eyes were burning in the hot air that steaming out of his own body, his eyes didn't failed to see the hurtful yet criticizing gaze of hers that bored down to him. The gaze he found to be hated in others eyes, rather imparting an subtle feel of attainment by hers.

The mortified voice that perked in his ears of confession that continuously defended his side and the others, taking the blame on herself that it was her manipulation was endearingly courageous.

Nonetheless, the other two Master's seen through her lies instantly. Since, they were aware that the girl wasn't stupid enough to bury it down like the ground was scratched by a cat to hide it.

Atleast the events of the trio's first ever getting kicked out was well....interesting.

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The night never been so solemnly peaceful, atleast not in Na-ra's story. Even when the unkept nightmares and visions were brimmed inside her mind restlessly, she would rather turn up to herself than to concern those who doesn't have the answers she seeked.

Nevertheless, maybe atleast for a change to this night, her steps were synced with another.

"....Are you okay? "

A simple three words.

As it was simple as that, it was simple to let her mind to unveil the question to herself.

Am I okay??

She certainly knew the answer before it began to inquiry, yet the feeling of even when everything was wrong there was a sense hinting right.

Was she okay with that?...... Yes and no.

Her entire life til a month or so before, it would be unquestionably a no from her.

However, now??

The sense of the minute amount of the pure unassailable energy lacing inside her veins, as it was meant to be, it felt.... Belonged.

It felt so right to be wronged.

The surreal power that intertwined her energy and breathing molded to one, the first time in her life she felt differed by the energy within her and didn't loathed the prospect of it.

If I could just feel that heavenly energy one more time-

The heedless thoughts that swayed her mind came to an abrupt halt by the slight notion of fingers grazing hers. The unbound gaze of Yul searching hers as it was ended in an tangled haze til now.

The air in her throat tightened as she found his concerned gaze towards her, her mind swirling back in the reality of how things are.

I must've been crazy to think something like this.

" What happened?? Do you need to-"

" What was I talking to Dang-gu when you and Uk came into room back there?"

The sudden dire question out of the blue holding her tightened nerves as if that was that last thread of sanity that held her together. Her mind were scattered into thousands to find an answer, what happened back there?? What part of her life did she missed?? What exactly is happening...

The anticipation for the answers in her gaze almost overwhelming the boy, it was as if things were falling apart to different directions.

"...You weren't talking about anything. "

The answer almost incomprehensible to her wrap around her mind. She remembered her eyes boring down on Dang-gu with criticize of doing a rash decision, yet the approval of owning up and revealing their relationship in a dire circumstances. His plight of words that were constantly cutting down by hers, almost that if she was in his position she would have attempted an murder.

The thing is, she was never silent.Atleast, til she had her conscious in one place.

" So... I spoke nothing even when you and Uk came in....? "

" No, you were talking about Dang-gu and Cho-yeong. How Lady Jin wouldn't agree to their relationship, and seeing Dang-gu just kept weeping you Frustratedly stood up an───you don't......remember?..."

There were absolutely no memory of that, of her own words that spewed out from her lips.... Rather only the torturous moments she had to put up.

She felt her warm hands turning into cold ones as her heart refused to beat any slower. The air in her lungs completely sucked out and reluctant to breath again in the revelation. The muffled voices in the background becoming a silent sea, as her eyes started to wander away.

Then over again, the familiar finger tips brushed hers before Intertwining together to retreat back into the conscious world.

" It's just, I- nothing. It's nothin-"

Before the girl could slide away from the topic by utterly looking away from his concern interlaced eyes, a hand delicately placed down her cheek. An gentle stroke by his thump brushing past her strands of hair that sat past her skin.
The delicate soft touch almost weakening her stance to immerse in it completely to find comfort and vanish from the hurdles as she leant towards it.

" What is it? Tell me, do not suffer alone...let me be with you by your side...entirely. "

She could've ignored it, slide off from the topic with a thoughtless reassure and end the night to a conflicting thought. Yet, the eyes of the man in front of her swayed past her thoughts as it was held nothing but vulnerability with the mixed distress for her.

" I.... I want to live, Yul...... Not exist in a suffocating life rather to be alive... I cannot seem to do that...how much hard I tries to..."

The strange words were dumbfounding to the unknown, yet her words were beyond clear understandable to the boy who loosed his grasp from her hands before taking a step forward to hold close the girl in his sudden embrace. His hands cradling her head deep into his chest, as hers clutched onto his shoulders reluctant to let the tears paint her cheeks.

The urge to scream your voice raw into the voidness and completely consumed by the rage that have been building up from day one where all your value lies under the one that isn't you, quieting down in the tranquil hold of his. The rhythmic sound of heartbeats past the several layers of cloth ghostly falling into her ears, soothing down the thoughts into an hollow.

" I'll be here for you with open hands... Always . "

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𝐇𝐞𝐲𝐲𝐲,

𝐒𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐮𝐩𝐝𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐮𝐲𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐢𝐜 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐰 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐮𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐩𝐥𝐬𝐬𝐬...
𝐈𝐭'𝐬 𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧
𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐬 𝐚 𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 (T^T)...

𝐖𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐈 𝐠𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚 𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞 𝐪𝐮𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐢𝐧
𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐢𝐭'𝐬.... 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬,𝐈 𝐠𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐬??

𝐒𝐨𝐨𝐨𝐨 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐮𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫
𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐡𝐡𝐡, 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞
𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐲 𝐦𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐬 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐚𝐬 𝐜𝐚𝐧 (⁠人⁠⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)

𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐚𝐚𝐚𝐚𝐚 ♡